Welcome to the other side. I am still working on love after 15 years in ministry, but what I have found after leaving is a version of me that is genuine. I have a degree in theology that I was going to use to pastor now I use it to debunk people who use the bible for hate. Ihope you find a similar use for your old skills. Life is so much more wonderous and fulfilling once a book no longer tells you how to interpret everything you do.. thank you for sharing there you are not alone.