This is amazing I am glad you put pen to something I have felt since I first transitioned. It has taken along time to accept myself as a woman, and in most areas I have but when it comes to being active in the fight for feminism, my support is genuine, after all anyone can support the feminist causes. My cognitive dissonance kicks in when I try to see myself the benefactor of those benefits. I Am not sure in my own life I am ever going to be able to do that, or join active feminist groups or spaces. I Believe trans women like myself are women and should have those rights….except me. I Think its the age To be honest. I am 40, everyone who is responding to this is so fsr a gen x or a boomer or in that Xennial cross over age. The younger communities better understand these principles, every step we take towards liberation is going to be fought with our own mental strife, after all we are saddled with a lifetime of mental baggage telling us this is not the way it is. I mean if I am completly honest I still struggle to find a voice other than a voice of encouragement in the trans community, mostly because the bulk of my life has been lives so differently and with a level of privilege most dont have. Thank you for sharing this