I may have written about this a while ago, but it's still mostly relevant today. I'm not going to rehash it, but take a look at the points in the article below. Mostly, my biggest thing is your pain and struggles are valid and you should express them, but it doesn't mean trans people can't feel joy; that is nonsense and, honestly, a harmful narrative to put out into the world. You may say that you have been trans longer, but I have a large group of friends who transitioned in the 90 no surgery or giant boobs etc., and they are the happiest people I know. I myself have had no surgery, no hourglass figure, and a beer gut, but I'm still happy with who I am. I'm sorry you haven't felt the joy, and I desire that for all of us. Please don't paint that broad of a brush on your experience when talking about how trans people experience life.

https://medium.com/p/e570c3cdd3ca